Some Blog Housekeeping

I've been doing some housekeeping of my little blog today - something I've been meaning to do for the last nine months! What can I say, I need deadlines to get my butt into gear! Something exciting is happening to my blog very, very soon and so I wanted to get my act together and get my out of control label categories down to a slightly more manageable and hopefully coherent cluster. I can tell you're excited by this news but wait, it gets slightly more interesting: It's weird to admit this but I love reading my blog posts the day I write them and maybe read them four or five times (mostly to attempt to correct my grammar and appalling spelling) but once I've posted the next entry, I never go back and review what I wrote days, weeks or months later - that was, until today. I can't say I read them all today - but I read snippets of most of them and a couple things struck me.

Boy do I never manage to have any control over my eating habits!

I seem to be forever saying I'm getting my chocolate and sugar consumption under control and never do. But I never fail to bring up the exact same point days, weeks or months later as if the thought just occurred to me. A severe case of dieters amnesia if ever there was one!

Also I seem to be perpetually tired and knackered in every post - today unfortunately is no exception. I feel like I've been hit by the Sandman's truck head on. Part of the reason I took four months off work was to give myself a rest and try to find a way to be and feel less tired before getting on with the next 40 plus years of work and life. That's another thing I've haven't cracked yet. Oops.

Plus how moany am I?! Well except for all the times that I AM CRAZY HYPER EXCITED!!!!! Good Lord. I thought I was quite well balanced mentally - honestly I really did and I also genuinely thought that over the last 18 months I'd got much more optimistic in my outlook - that was until I had to categorise most of my posts under the headers 'Crazy Ramblings' and 'Random Craziness'! This is probably another such one to add to that pile! Have to laugh - it recently struck me that I treat my blog like a virtual boyfriend - a space to recount my day and tell my story. Looking back at these posts made it a bit too obvious why I am 100% boyfriend repellent - this girl is just too too crazy up and down all the time!! Whoops a daisy. Something else to work on!

But the one thing that struck me the most was just how fortunate that I am - to have a great group of supportive and generous people around me and people who truly inspire my heart, not to mention so many nice things happening to me out of the blue - even despite moaning like crazy most of the time. While my memory of these generosities fades criminally quickly, my accounts of these treasures - however ineloquently recounted - remain to remind me of all the incredible gestures of friendship and support and inspiration that have come my way.

That's a really nice feeling especially in comparison to near vomiting this morning after today's crossfit workout session (haha lowered the tone - told you I'm ineloquent):

Lindsay from Seattle and I paired up today to do battle and 45 minutes later we were finally done. By the end I was completely convinced I had heat stroke as I can't recall feeling so sick. Fortunately 8 hours later the nausea has faded. But the one thing that will remain with me a while yet is cranking out 30 burpees around the 40 minute mark of being on the go in 100 degree heat - with everyone around me long since finished their own workouts - but having three ladies come and cheer me on. One particular lady sat down on the mat next to me as I was still cranking out burpees and said in a low voice - just loud enough for me to hear - 'honestly, you're a burpee goddess'

Not sure I've even been called a goddess before. Thank you so much from the bottom of my crazy and all-too-occasionally psychotic heart! xx

p.s. Han if you're reading this - Monday the exciting news will be revealed (to hopefully co-inside with other exciting developments). Swear on my life. So check back then xx